Christmas

dear God, I'm just so thankful that Christmas doesn't happens around me but in me and with you, it's Christmas every day. :)

Love Storey was good. I had no visitors, but it's the first time after a long time according to Huiying that I am no longer a visitor! After Love Storey, rushed to prepare for the party cos I'm doing the decor and the rest doing decor had visitors. By the time we were done with preparations it was like 930pm already haha, but quite fun lah, decided to stay over. And Yeehua was so annoying cuz she kept turning and tossing until I keep waking up and decide not to sleep! Haha slept for only two hours and went to work early this morning! Went there and figured out that Jiejie didn't sleep at all and Moy worked 14.5hours yesterday! So today we were all like zombified! There were ultimate sucky customers and just wanna kill so badly, especially cos I'm tired. I don't understand why you want to keep choosing your seats, ask them wanna sit inside or outside, say inside. After laying out the menus and all, wanna change to outside? Really nothing better to do I promise.

But anyhows, before Love Storey! I went out with the Teos. Caden was superrrr cute. There's no reason not to like him apart from the fact that he is quite mischievous and naughty hehe but when he smiles and speaks, woah can literally melt. Hehe he kept holding my hand and talk to me about lots of things - from doremon, to buying me presents, to milk powder and his favourite topic - FOOD. And whenever I tell him "Caden.. cannot! Later you will spoil it.. then you don't have money to pay" then he will look at me and say "Jiejie have money!" Can't wait to be out with them again, Mr Teo WAS quite nice.. hahah!

#9 - twentyten

As a way to wrap up this year, I'll dedicate this post to give thanks. So till the end of this year I wouldn't be blogging here, or I'd pin this post or something.

This year's been really fruitful and memorable to me; and I would say it's one of the years I faced the least trouble. I've been happy nearly all year round except the fact I had trouble integrating into the JC system, being too secondhome-sick, worrying for the people around me, having tough time trying to make decisions, having troubles at home and being spiritually dry and worn out totally. I guess that's cos when you're dry, friction occurs even more easily?

But I truly thank God for sending people in every season of my life to make things better, even though sometimes what's been done may seem to be unspiritual but it makes me feel better. And thank God, I didn't implicate anyone. I know I can be really influential in the unspiritual way and I was remorseful when I previously directly or indirectly caused people to backslide back in Central so yeah I really hope history don't repeat itself again :S But through my unspirituality and all, so glad there were always people to pull me back and it'll be my new year resolution to pull people back instead of pushing people off.

Hehe I guess the list hardly deviates much through the years and I always say the same -

Whiny BFF.
I have no idea what to say but like you've been such a great support to me all these while like giving me the back up in whatever I do, whether you think it's correct or not that kinda thing. Know that from the start you were quite skeptical about me going back to church, haha, but yeah I mean I'll always respect your views and stuffs. I'm just so thankful you're always there, though most of the time whiny :S heh, gonna miss much of that when you go to Griffith. Hope that when you're back, we'll still be BFFs (right?) haha and um, your mum won't call me much eh? And like I don't have to call your mum much too.. You're important to me in a way I can't express it anymore?

The Silly Loner. Cupcorn.
You. I have so much to say this year. In the past years, you've been an amazing friend, sister and maybe for a year, awesome amath tutor though my results still sucked. Though we only met during the holidays in the past, you were like someone that never left my side. Though you went away to your favourite communist land the first half of this year, I felt closer to you than ever before. Thanks for being there for me even miles away when I was sick, your prayers reassured and comforted me so much. When you were back, though you were busy you never brushed me off.. the phone calls, the prayers, the hth talks, the creampuff stuffing, those times I just didn't want to go home - everything, if I could just compile everything you did this year, I can safely say that no one on earth ever made me feel as loved as this. All this is excluding the fact you gotta stop singing awfully to me.. HAHA and if I were a guy I would marry you!! (and I did away with the "you are the most understanding and nicest person ever!" HAHAHAH)

Bitchiest :O
Though you are the self-acclaimed bitchiest, I still think you are quite fine and really nice to talk to as well. I can't believe I didn't like you last time and I actually invited you over to my place to scrapbook for your boyfriend? Like my house is really sacred and I hardly invite people over! Omgosh haha. :) Please just stop eating because I keep eating with ya that's why I'm gaining weight heh n no worries, I know you're not coping well. But know that everything's in good hands! :D I really enjoy having you around cuz even if I'm having the toughest day in the entire history of my life, there is no doubt you'll definitely make me laugh with your ultra contagious laughter :)

Mamaaamonster
I think that this year's been exceptionally amazing for us. Though I've been your PA/slave/maid whatsoever for like three years already, this year's really the year we grew so much closer and thank you for putting in every ounce of effort you've to take care of me despite having to take care of Caden already. I mean, he is the naughty boy, I am the naughty girl and together we take up so much time just making you furious, haha kidding. I think it's your way of showing love, I don't know if you realise but where ever you went, be it Malacca or Taiwan or even like when we go out together, you'd always buy me something which kinda makes me feel bad but omg I just really love you!

To prevent all wordiness I shall not go on, but I'd love to thank - Christina Wong, Yeehua, Jinger, Zuoen, Chinyan, Hang, Pam, Jessica, Alicia Chow, Mabel, Shirlyn, Sam, Alicia Ng, Cherilyn, Joyce, Adria, Gracia, Shara, Vito, Arshad, Lijing, Fran and David for such a wonderful year (:

#8

I'm back from Fireproof Camp and I cannot. Cannot. Cannot. Wait to go Hokkaido though I met with problems like "why didn't you discuss with your mum before hand?" and it got me kinda irritated.

Then again I realised I'm walking in circles EVERY single day. Every single day I've to choose, do I have to do God's work instead of spending time with people I love? Really. But in The I Heart Revolution movie, I guess after all the sharings and what nots, what struck me the most was the tendency that we love to draw a line of division between our secular life and spiritual life, but it's all rubbish cos everything is part of my spiritual life. Cos my walk with God is everyday and not just when I go to church or what. Though this was something that spoke really much to me and like on the way home from camp I've been thinking like insanely much about it, I can't think of any feasible solution to fit it. I need to seek the higher being.

Another thing that struck me hard enough was the fact that IF what happens inside the four walls of the church doesn’t make a difference in the streets that people travel to get there, then maybe we are missing the point. We can do so much and have so much in church but really what's the point cos the church doesn't exist for the church but exists for the lost. And I was really thankful I got to talk to Yong En last night, and he made me feel like as if all the pioneering in Peiying was quite worth while cos at least he is still around. When he heard about my problems he was like "I think the church exists for the sick, the weak, the poor.. and not the healthy" And though I know like we can't do very much like if people choose to leave or people do not want to accept Christ into their lives, but in EVERYTHING we can make things better for people.

Last thing was when I spoke to Jinger last night, she asked me "if you ever backslide AGAIN, would you regret it?" I answered it as frankly as I could but through everything I think there is ONE thing I'm realizing that is, God's love does not change though I may be unhappy with the system, the people or whatever. I can do all sorts of things but ultimately I really cannot deny Him in my life. I think one thing Silly said when she prayed for me was "We may all doubt some times or another but we know You're still real and faithful" Okay my point is, I kinda made a commitment that only if one day I've lost all my faith in God and I'm so so so so convicted by it, then I will backslide again. Though I hope that day will never come.

As a conclusion, I suppose everything that was taught and learnt were issues so close to my heart and really like woahing. I'm also so thankful for everyone who talked to me during camp though I'm so sorry zuoen and chinyan that I fell asleep :(

#7

Today marks the last of my hamper wrapping career at Olio Alliance Francaise
Received a lot of love from Uncle Ben, Grace, Zhiping and Siaw Fang
Thank God really. Really.
I felt so sad when Fang left today cos that'll be the last time I'm seeing her
At least for the year
But I doubt that I'll still be working when she returns :S

And she may not be at Dempsey anymore

It occurred to me,
How much Dome Dempsey Hill means to me

This morning Debbie & I had breakfast there
With Huishi, Shiao Sez, Uncle Johnny, Liang and Fang
I really don't wanna leave
This year we fostered such a close bond,
Kept going out and all
Huishi's leaving, and so am I...
I don't know what else to say
But Dempsey Hill's like my third home

My home's my first home
KCP is my second home
Dempsey is my third

I'll be ten times sadder than ever when I leave this year
So tell me how will I feel when Pris has to go.

#6

i've decided once again to start blogging. But this time i'mma lock most of my posts cause i feel that there is a need to document my life at one point or another before i get older and forget all that i've been through or did when i was younger. And i don't need the entire world to know what's going on nor do i want to hear/read irrelevant sucky comments from people who think they're such big fucks that i gotta give a shit about them. I'm just really sick and tired of cocky people who think they have all the rights in the world to comment on every single lil' thing even though it has nothing to do with them whatsoever.

- my wisest bff in the frigging world. :)

#5

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MAMA/SISTER/TEACHER/M'AM/FRIEND/BOSS/QUEEN!

i've been with you for three freaking years?!
it's crazy!! all the neverending stream of dtf xlbs, macdonalds breakfast, our crap talks, hth talks, diamond fest haha and crazy things!

love you ttm!

#4

Had a tweet-chat with..
Gracia Goh, Choo Yilin, MeHh Zee, Natasha Lee
Reminiscing of those days in KCP

The orientation,
The first time we ate in the canteen
Mee-pok with Nat, Mich and Joan
Yvonne and Geraldine came to look for me (Y)

The secondary one level camp
Renee and I practiced for talent night like crazy
We played some game
And 1 Love's Bryan kicked my leg with his iron leg
I injuried my leg
Ms Oon drove me to the clinic
I came back, and had a headache
I met Chong Jiawei Priscilla
My class cried like crazy and Pris was there again (:

Remember when Ms Lim Shuyen came to ask me
if I wanted to be a councillor on my 13th birthday
I was completely stunned
I asked if it was a birthday trick
Thinking of it makes me smile

Secondary two level camp at Dairy Farm
I did flying fox for the first time ever
Had awesome instructor Lindsay
Night hike to see the stars
It was beautiful

Hi-cal at the end of Sec 2
In the same group as Joleen and Benjamin Wong
Was the youngest in my group but the leader
We washed cars
Raised $500 for Child@Street 11
I miss Dave!!

Secondary 3 level camp at Taman Hutan Legenda
Three peace was Chinook; the green flag
A bitchy instructor Krislyn and nice Ian
Played a night game
Arshad burnt his finger I remember
Cos the candle was so short already
Fell on the last day of camp
Cried so badly
I've a souvenir from THL.

Secondary 4 level camp was at Camp Christine
It sucked so bad
I texted Lim Shuyen all the way from the start till the end
I slept in the movie theatre that was open 24/7
When I slept in the bunk
I slept on Abby's bed
And she came back and we shared a bed

Actually I kinda do miss being Abby's friend,
I think she's nice

But I just can't stand being her friend after some time
My bad, my fault.

Talked about KCP food..
from caifan's kangkong, tofu, black sauce chicken, grilled chicken, bittergourd, sweet and sour fish, fried chicken (which ms foo can eat up to 3 a day!!)

to western's hokkien mee and pineapple rice,

malay stall's amazing horfun, lontong, rendang,

noodles stall's mianxian tang and guo tiao tang, curry mee, lor thick beehoon, meepok

stall 2's burgers i sneak up for my class everyday,

stall 1's fruits, yogurts, soy milk, david's favourite chin chow.. crazy lotsa green tea in my crumpler everyday..

I MISS EVERYTHING.
And I'm going back for S1 Reg!!

It's under my sweet mumma!

#3

Huishi, Sez, Wen, Fang & Angel bullied me like crazy
I miss you B!!

-

Stacia's finally back!
Met her just now for Starbucks

Really awesome catch up and bitching~
Still as eccentric as EVER

Since she's gonna go to uni soon and all
Made me think over again what I wanna do
Geography and teaching.. hmmmm!

Shalin will be back tomorrow (Y)

"Cause way down deep inside
We've got a dream"

#2

And at last, I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last, I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted

All at once
Everything looks different
Now that I see you

-

Bought popcorn and chips and lollipops
Got a pair of 3.5" wedges I'd be so damn tall
Ended the day with mumma's red bean soup (:

Oh I didn't mention! Expect only happy things here, my life's perfect you see~

#1

There isn't very much left to say, is there?

Can't wait for tomorrow, dad's cooking abalone chicken & my sister's getting me tang yuan with almond milk!

I'm hungryyyyyy!!